not attached to the story at all.
I hope when you look back on your life//
You are bombarded by all the mistakes
That could have changed where you are today//
I know that the way you look at me now is unreal//
I watch your eyes glaze over
Like I'm not anything anymore
Just a burden in your
Oh-so-blissful life//
The poison you've caused
Seeps into your skin like venom
As you run from the pain//
Run from everything you've ever known,
Everything you were ever meant to be//
Run to your future, so near
But you can't reach it
Your mistakes have changed you, your path
Now it's the past that will set you free...
____
I know that when you walk into your empty house
You'll see that you're not the only one with feelings//
You'll sit on the piano bench, contemplating your blissless life//
Only to find that I'm the one you need//
You'll realize in your white-trash ways
That you've screwed me and everyone else you came in contact with//
Time is old//
It has outdone your tricks, your lies//
And you'll lie there on the cold, hard floor//
Desperately waiting, collecting dust//
Run down by suicidal thoughts
Devoted to no one but yourself//
And I know I'll be the one to pick you up once more...
xx
3.24.2009
3.17.2009
not the story...don't look
im only doing this for my history class...cant open email in school.
leasing of government-owned oil reserves
http://encarta.msn.com/encyclopedia_761578596/Teapot_Dome.html
stuff about Albert Fall:
http://encarta.msn.com/encyclopedia_761565470/Albert_Fall.html
sorry guys...school stuff...
leasing of government-owned oil reserves
http://encarta.msn.com/encyclopedia_761578596/Teapot_Dome.html
stuff about Albert Fall:
http://encarta.msn.com/encyclopedia_761565470/Albert_Fall.html
sorry guys...school stuff...
3.09.2009
long time...
parte six...
He leaned in for a kiss. All the troubles cleared from my mind. I felt his soft hands on the small of my back as our lips met. I ruffled my hands in his hair, forgiving and forgetting everything that had happened.
Then someone knocked on the door.
We ignored it at first, starting to move over to the bed. Then the person started banging on the door, screaming "DOM!!" We parted. He got up to answer the door. I sat on the bed and checked out his ass.
As soon as he opened the door, my sister, Kherington, and her fiance, Chaz, burst through the door, out of breath.
"They're here!!!!" Kher screamed, breathing heavily.
Dom and I exchanged confused glances. We looked at Chaz for some kind of clue. He was doubled over, trying to catch his breath.
I chose to take part in another of my sister's games. "Who's here?"
She stared at me in disbelief. "Who have we been waiting for this whole time WE'VE BEEN IN GOD DAMN LONDON???!"
Then it clicked. I turned to Dom, giggling and squealing, feeling incredulous. I saw him realize it too. We started jumping up and down and laughing.
"WHERE ARE THEY???!" I yelled at my sister without realizing it. My voice was high-pitched and squeaky. Dom laughed at how crazy we were acting.
"They're downstairs," Chaz said calmly. "Waiting for you all to get down there." He was still breathing hard. I was guessing that they'd taken the stairs to get here faster.
Dom and I screamed and ran out into the hall. We flew down the stairs and into the hotel lobby. And there was my dream waiting for me: Mike, Chaz, Rob, Joe, Brad, and Phoenix. All standing with their backs turned, talking. The edges of my sight started to turn black and I started to fall backwards. The next thing I knew, I was staring into Dom's eyes with Mike and Bourdy looking over me, worried looks on their faces. I felt my cheeks get hot. I couldn't believe I had fainted.
xx more comin'
He leaned in for a kiss. All the troubles cleared from my mind. I felt his soft hands on the small of my back as our lips met. I ruffled my hands in his hair, forgiving and forgetting everything that had happened.
Then someone knocked on the door.
We ignored it at first, starting to move over to the bed. Then the person started banging on the door, screaming "DOM!!" We parted. He got up to answer the door. I sat on the bed and checked out his ass.
As soon as he opened the door, my sister, Kherington, and her fiance, Chaz, burst through the door, out of breath.
"They're here!!!!" Kher screamed, breathing heavily.
Dom and I exchanged confused glances. We looked at Chaz for some kind of clue. He was doubled over, trying to catch his breath.
I chose to take part in another of my sister's games. "Who's here?"
She stared at me in disbelief. "Who have we been waiting for this whole time WE'VE BEEN IN GOD DAMN LONDON???!"
Then it clicked. I turned to Dom, giggling and squealing, feeling incredulous. I saw him realize it too. We started jumping up and down and laughing.
"WHERE ARE THEY???!" I yelled at my sister without realizing it. My voice was high-pitched and squeaky. Dom laughed at how crazy we were acting.
"They're downstairs," Chaz said calmly. "Waiting for you all to get down there." He was still breathing hard. I was guessing that they'd taken the stairs to get here faster.
Dom and I screamed and ran out into the hall. We flew down the stairs and into the hotel lobby. And there was my dream waiting for me: Mike, Chaz, Rob, Joe, Brad, and Phoenix. All standing with their backs turned, talking. The edges of my sight started to turn black and I started to fall backwards. The next thing I knew, I was staring into Dom's eyes with Mike and Bourdy looking over me, worried looks on their faces. I felt my cheeks get hot. I couldn't believe I had fainted.
xx more comin'
2.26.2009
ivreal.ning.com
parte cinq
There was Dom. In a tux holding a rose. And he looked different--
It was then that I realized that he got his cheek pierced. And it was hot.
"Wh-....how-....wh-?" I stammered in shock.
"I thought you might like it....you always talk about that Victor guy with his lip pierced...I just thought you would like it.."
"I-...I do.." I said. I was trying really hard not to run over and jump on him. "Wow....is that where you were?" I was dazed.
"Yeah...and I'm really sorry about that. It was the only time I had before the concert tomorrow..." He looked like he felt bad about not telling me.
Then I remember that Nik is downstairs. And also what happened between us.
"And why is--?"
"Nik here?" It was now obvious he felt bad. "Yeah...he's moving here to be an artist. He called me when I was on my way to the piercing shop, and I told him he could stay in our room tonight. As long as you don't mind, of course." He knew I was still awkward with him.
There was a long pause. A little part of me wanted to be angry at him for leaving like that. For not warning me that Nik was here, at the hotel. But I couldn't be mad at him. Not with all that we've been through...meeting on LPU...meeting each other for the first time when Linkin Park was playing at the Summer Sonic Festival in Tokyo. I just couldn't do it.
"Yeah....that's fine...."
"Are you mad?" he asked, his eyes looking straight into mine passionately.
"I want to be..." I felt distant. I knew I had to tell him about Nik. "I saw Nik in the lobby....we talked..." I noticed he was hanging on my every word, expecting the worst. "He made a move on me." I saw his eyes glaze over, then he looked relieved.
He got up from the bed. I felt a cold drop of water drip down my neck from my mini-bath earlier. Instinctively I shiver. I couldn't read his face. "Really? I figured he would..." There was an awkward silence. He moved closer, taking both my hands in his. "Are you okay?"
I looked him up and down, taking in his amazing new piercing. I grinned. "Yeah..I'll be....fine."
xx
There was Dom. In a tux holding a rose. And he looked different--
It was then that I realized that he got his cheek pierced. And it was hot.
"Wh-....how-....wh-?" I stammered in shock.
"I thought you might like it....you always talk about that Victor guy with his lip pierced...I just thought you would like it.."
"I-...I do.." I said. I was trying really hard not to run over and jump on him. "Wow....is that where you were?" I was dazed.
"Yeah...and I'm really sorry about that. It was the only time I had before the concert tomorrow..." He looked like he felt bad about not telling me.
Then I remember that Nik is downstairs. And also what happened between us.
"And why is--?"
"Nik here?" It was now obvious he felt bad. "Yeah...he's moving here to be an artist. He called me when I was on my way to the piercing shop, and I told him he could stay in our room tonight. As long as you don't mind, of course." He knew I was still awkward with him.
There was a long pause. A little part of me wanted to be angry at him for leaving like that. For not warning me that Nik was here, at the hotel. But I couldn't be mad at him. Not with all that we've been through...meeting on LPU...meeting each other for the first time when Linkin Park was playing at the Summer Sonic Festival in Tokyo. I just couldn't do it.
"Yeah....that's fine...."
"Are you mad?" he asked, his eyes looking straight into mine passionately.
"I want to be..." I felt distant. I knew I had to tell him about Nik. "I saw Nik in the lobby....we talked..." I noticed he was hanging on my every word, expecting the worst. "He made a move on me." I saw his eyes glaze over, then he looked relieved.
He got up from the bed. I felt a cold drop of water drip down my neck from my mini-bath earlier. Instinctively I shiver. I couldn't read his face. "Really? I figured he would..." There was an awkward silence. He moved closer, taking both my hands in his. "Are you okay?"
I looked him up and down, taking in his amazing new piercing. I grinned. "Yeah..I'll be....fine."
xx
2.24.2009
ummm here 4 (IV)
parte quatre.
The guy turns around. My mind is screaming MAYDAY MAYDAY. I feel my cheeks burn; I know they're almost to their brilliant shade of EMBARRASSED. I look at him....he looks oddly familiar...
"NIK??!" I half-scream, half whisper in surprise. It's Dom's brother. But more importantly, my ex. "What-What are you doing here?? I haven't seen you since...well...you know..."
He chuckles. Then he frowns. "Where's Dom?" he asks, like I would know.
"I'm not sure...I figured he'd be down here. He wasn't up in our hotel room..." I'm starting to get worried. Or if he's okay, irate.
Nik and I wait around, making small talk. One of the many things I haven't mastered in my twenty years.
"...So then I was like, why did he do that? The bear was right there!" Nik says, laughing so hard the cheap wine in a styrofoam cup spills on his shoes. I laugh, even though I missed the story line. I was thinking about Dom. And how he would think about all of this.
Then it happens. He leans in for a kiss. I, still thinking of Dom, freak out and back away. He looks hurt, but he knows that I'm in love with his brother. Upset, I run down the hall, up the stairs, and into our hotel room.
Ignoring my trouble to catch my breath, I run into the bathroom and on impulse start to fill the sink with cold water. When it's full, I take a deep breath and stick my head in. I let it all consume me, leaving me numb. Eventually I run out of breath and am forced to take my head out. Once I do I immediately feel better.
I blindedly grab a towel for my soaking-wet hair and dry it off--just enough that it'll stop dripping. I flip my head up--I feel so fresh, so new.
I walk out to lay on the bed and when I get there--there's Dom.
xx.
The guy turns around. My mind is screaming MAYDAY MAYDAY. I feel my cheeks burn; I know they're almost to their brilliant shade of EMBARRASSED. I look at him....he looks oddly familiar...
"NIK??!" I half-scream, half whisper in surprise. It's Dom's brother. But more importantly, my ex. "What-What are you doing here?? I haven't seen you since...well...you know..."
He chuckles. Then he frowns. "Where's Dom?" he asks, like I would know.
"I'm not sure...I figured he'd be down here. He wasn't up in our hotel room..." I'm starting to get worried. Or if he's okay, irate.
Nik and I wait around, making small talk. One of the many things I haven't mastered in my twenty years.
"...So then I was like, why did he do that? The bear was right there!" Nik says, laughing so hard the cheap wine in a styrofoam cup spills on his shoes. I laugh, even though I missed the story line. I was thinking about Dom. And how he would think about all of this.
Then it happens. He leans in for a kiss. I, still thinking of Dom, freak out and back away. He looks hurt, but he knows that I'm in love with his brother. Upset, I run down the hall, up the stairs, and into our hotel room.
Ignoring my trouble to catch my breath, I run into the bathroom and on impulse start to fill the sink with cold water. When it's full, I take a deep breath and stick my head in. I let it all consume me, leaving me numb. Eventually I run out of breath and am forced to take my head out. Once I do I immediately feel better.
I blindedly grab a towel for my soaking-wet hair and dry it off--just enough that it'll stop dripping. I flip my head up--I feel so fresh, so new.
I walk out to lay on the bed and when I get there--there's Dom.
xx.
2.23.2009
ummm....here 3
parte trois.
I go to the bathroom to get ready. I absentmindedly close the door; after peeking out again a few minutes later I see that he's getting dressed. I fight the urge to run over to him. Closing the door, I start to work on my boring brown hair.
After ten minutes of yanking and untangling with the flat iron I spent fifty bucks on, I'm finally ready. I saunter back into our room, getting ready to say something witty until I realize he's not in here. Thinking that he's in the lobby downstairs, I walk out and into the elevator. An instrumental Melissa Ethridge song is playing. Elevator music always irks me.
When the elevator door opens, I see a huge crowd of people, all talking amongst themselves with their backs turned to me. Some of the girls are in maroon cheerleader skirts with ripped white stockings underneath; most of the guys are wearing the ugliest red jerseys I've ever seen with putrid barf-color shorts. I see Dom in the crowd and I run over there to surprise him. I slap his ass playfully. Then I realize--
It's not Dom.
xx
I go to the bathroom to get ready. I absentmindedly close the door; after peeking out again a few minutes later I see that he's getting dressed. I fight the urge to run over to him. Closing the door, I start to work on my boring brown hair.
After ten minutes of yanking and untangling with the flat iron I spent fifty bucks on, I'm finally ready. I saunter back into our room, getting ready to say something witty until I realize he's not in here. Thinking that he's in the lobby downstairs, I walk out and into the elevator. An instrumental Melissa Ethridge song is playing. Elevator music always irks me.
When the elevator door opens, I see a huge crowd of people, all talking amongst themselves with their backs turned to me. Some of the girls are in maroon cheerleader skirts with ripped white stockings underneath; most of the guys are wearing the ugliest red jerseys I've ever seen with putrid barf-color shorts. I see Dom in the crowd and I run over there to surprise him. I slap his ass playfully. Then I realize--
It's not Dom.
xx
2.20.2009
ummm here (II)
parte deux (II)
After playing X-Box till about 10 o'clock, he falls asleep. I turn off the TV and lay next to him on the bed, enjoying his presence. I think of tomorrow until I fall asleep too.
My dreams erupt. Mike, Chaz, Rob, all the guys on stage, playing their hearts out. Me and Dominic, dancing in a huge crowd of fans almost as crazy as we are. My heart racing, my ears going numb, then they play the last note....the crowd goes wild....
zzzzzzzzzzzz!!! My phone is vibrating in my jeans pocket. It's a text from my sister:
Sis: wake up! its noon...hows dom? missin his fam?
Moi: hes sleepin..im awake...idk we havent talked about it..
I look over at him. His short black hair is kind of messy...old, wrinkly LPU6 shirt...baggy dark jeans with dirt on the bottom. It all clashes with his brand-new Mike-created kicks. It always makes me smile when I think of how he sleeps in his shoes.
I watch him stir, waking up finally.
"Afternoon," I say, smirking as I catch his lips with a short but passionate kiss.
"Mmm....afternoon," he says after we part.
I smile. "Come on, we're meeting my sister and her fiance at the club in half an hour. And no, you don't have to dress up."
xx
After playing X-Box till about 10 o'clock, he falls asleep. I turn off the TV and lay next to him on the bed, enjoying his presence. I think of tomorrow until I fall asleep too.
My dreams erupt. Mike, Chaz, Rob, all the guys on stage, playing their hearts out. Me and Dominic, dancing in a huge crowd of fans almost as crazy as we are. My heart racing, my ears going numb, then they play the last note....the crowd goes wild....
zzzzzzzzzzzz!!! My phone is vibrating in my jeans pocket. It's a text from my sister:
Sis: wake up! its noon...hows dom? missin his fam?
Moi: hes sleepin..im awake...idk we havent talked about it..
I look over at him. His short black hair is kind of messy...old, wrinkly LPU6 shirt...baggy dark jeans with dirt on the bottom. It all clashes with his brand-new Mike-created kicks. It always makes me smile when I think of how he sleeps in his shoes.
I watch him stir, waking up finally.
"Afternoon," I say, smirking as I catch his lips with a short but passionate kiss.
"Mmm....afternoon," he says after we part.
I smile. "Come on, we're meeting my sister and her fiance at the club in half an hour. And no, you don't have to dress up."
xx
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